It's Time I share some things with you | Part 1

On May 5th, we hosted Grandmother Maya Dancing Wolf in the Temple of Breath and Bones for her quarterly Grandmother Circles, where she offers Indigenous teachings and holds space and supports our members on their path. In this session, she shared Turtle Medicine.

I was not anticipating receiving a transmission, as I am often there to simply anchor the space energetically for our monthly guests. But Maya's teachings and transmission on Turtle medicine opened something. I was asked to come out of my shell. I was TOLD by Spirit and the medicine of Turtle that I can no longer hide. In fact, while I was on this call and an entire 12-month shamanic training poured through me that I will start at the end of the Summer - every detail - when I should have been packing that night for my flight, I just couldn't stop fleshing out the flow that was pouring through me.

So this is where we begin.

It is time for me to share with you a deeper truth of who I am.

I want to share with you about the energy that courses through me.

I want to share with you about the intiations I have received.

I want to share with you why I so deeply commit to the teachings I share and embody.

I know that with me sharing, some of you may be challenged by my truth, and that is ok. I thank you for being with me this long in our Divine Roots Community, and I am grateful for your presence.

But the Turtle Medicine has me breaking out of my shell.

And as I come to understand, after a challenging two weeks in Egypt, the throat chakra of the planet, I am no longer able to be less than who I am. I am no longer able to suppress who I am. It is time.

I have shied away from the labels of shamanism and mysticism for the last few years, not because I had stepped off the path, but because

1) I was seeing the languaging attracting seekers who readily gave away their power to me, to the stories and mysticism, and who were not interested in the inner work of nervous system regulation and grounding, and looking at their own shit, but wanting me to fix them, anoint them in some way. Financially, my taking Shamanic healing work off the table would not make sense to a business person looking at my books, as it was how I was paying bills, but it felt out of integrity to allow people to pay me when I could now see they were not moving the needle on their journey or doing the work.

2) There are so many false prophets out there - people I know personally who call themselves healers and shamans, but have only ever done cheap online courses here and there, with one online brand or author, they have never sat in a ceremony, never met in person with a teacher or wisdom keeper, or gone the distance and really stepped in. I also know others who have thousands of followers and write the most beautiful posts, and have well-respected podcasts, but I got to know them too well, and they ARE NOT who you think they are, nor do they embody the voice or curated brand you see.

All of this left a bad taste in my mouth, and I did not want to be associated with any of it.

So here is where Egypt and the Turtle teaching comes in...

I am reclaiming the part of me that I was dimming. The Shamanic and Multidimensional Medicine woman who was only sharing a part of herself with the world.

Turtle made it very clear that now it's time for me to share myself fully.

And so I will start speaking a little more about this work that I do and the energetic frequency that runs through my being and how it shapes me.

My need for physical support after expansive experiences, ceremonies, and deep prayer is real. There is a recalibration that is required for my BE-ING every time I move through another layer. This is not a luxurious self-care thing - this is: I need support with my central channel because the current that is activated and running through me is so intense that I need support pulling it down into my physical container and grounding it into my being so that my physical nervous system doesn't shatter and that my mental body stays clear.

This is my reality.

The Currents that run through me continue to increase in vibrations, and even my dogs can't handle it when it isn't fully integrated because the pitch and the frequency are too high for them. It is not something I can do alone. This is not your everyday grounding. This affects both my arms and shoulders with constant and involuntary movement as well as a light language that becomes uncontrollable, which I cannot keep up with. This happens in my sleep, watching TV, in the car, when I first land from these experiences. I work very hard to physically integrate and have a team that supports me.

My Codes in the Isis Temple on Philae Island

I have come to understand that this current and energy is attached to a Christed consciousness from above - which is me. This has nothing to do with religion. This has everything to do with energy and consciousness. And for that, I want to be clear. I have explored this carefully over the years with support, grounded practices, mentorship, discernment, and deep nervous system work. So I want to be clear in speaking about my lived experience. This is not trauma coursing through me. This is not entity possession. This is not Kundalini awakening - although kundalini energy is involved - this is the evolution of my body being both human and consciousness embodied as they both continue to evolve through all that is transpiring on the planet.

I have always been on the path.

And then it deepened - and that is when everything changed.

I quit my job. I quit my career. People I loved thought I was crazy ( and you may think I am crazier after this, and that is ok)

The first initiation I received where I was fully aware of this was in Huangzhou, China, about a month before my 40th birthday, during one of my many work trips. And as I look back, I now realize that was when everything changed, and I have been moving quickly in my growth, although in what I call real time, it feels so slow.

To me, it feels like my physical body and nervous system have been in a massive recalibration since 2021, when I had another massive initiation. At Kinsa Cocha, Peru, with my then teacher and his teacher. There was no going back. I remembered too much, I knew too much, and my body was completely activated for over 11 hours, where my sister and colleague, Timmie, supported and nurtured the process like a spiritual doula. It took years to integrate that opening, but my mentor was on the other side of that experience and guided me through it over the next year.

I could no longer deny what I now understood. I could no longer deny the gnosis in my bones and the cells that are me, and the memory that I now had the capacity to access, and anyone who witnessed me could not deny the visceral expression that was moving through my body.

Tears at the Horus Sanctuary in Edfu - I was so profoundly moved that I made an offering of white-tailed deer fur from my medicine bag to honour my path

The Temple of Edfu was profound for me. There are moments when you are simply in the Gnosis and validation of your path - this was one of them.

2021, I began to learn how to navigate the frequency and consciousness moving through me and available to me. This does not make me special. It's just another thing I have been learning to figure out as a human, learning how to drive the car that is my body and nervous system, and this car goes really fast.

Over the years, I have found mentors and wisdom keepers who could hold my truth and guide me as I matured into this remembering from a consciousness perspective, as well as a human body catching up.

My closest medicine sisters have grown with me, supporting me when I literally start to vibrate out of the body and access information that they now also accept as truth. I trust my life with these women for they help me feel normal.

My husband also keeps me in check, and when he has to wake me up because I am weaving, coding, and channeling - he just brings me back to real life and the joy of being human! And we laugh.

This is life.

I didn't wish for this. It simply started and moved quickly because, apparently, my nervous system and my being were ready to remember.

My hands in the Karnak Complex

Before Timmie and I had a profound prayer and experience in the Osiris Sanctuary at Karnak

And the More I remember and learn, the less I know.

This feels like an appropriate space to pause. For you to digest what might feel wild and fantastical - but this is me.

I am a multidimensional medicine woman who walks through this incarnation to help people step into a life of spiritual embodiment and self-actualization.

I take out the recycling, I do the groceries and laundry, I clean my garden to support me in feeling normal, in feeling the balance and being grounded - I work hard to be grounded. And I devote everything to living as authentically as I can, and so it feels important to start sharing that.

If you made it to the end of this note, I thank you. If you read this note and you think, "Yup, I'm done." That is ok - and thanks for being here all this time.

I am going to take some space before I write part 2 - I had no idea what I was going to write in this one, and here it is, and I have no idea what the next part will be, but I will write when the flow returns.

As hard as Egypt was, it changed me in the way that it has asked me to be visible and to be fully all in - and this was not what I expected, and it feels a bit scary too.

So with that,

I ask that you be kind to me if this does not resonate with you all.

With great love,

x Rebecca Maria, The Ancient One